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What Hurt my Heart

Burden-bearing


This week, I had the joy of posting the remaining invitations. It might seem like a small task to some, but for me, it was a pleasure — because servanthood is in my spirit. Helping and supporting others is part of who I am. It energises me. It reminds me why I’m here.


“Whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant.” – Matthew 20:26 (NIV)


What really tugs at my heart was watching friends crack under the pressure. And not being able to help.


I could see the stress building, the weight on their shoulders. And even though I’m relieved to see some of that pressure lifting now, the way it played out left an impression. They reminded me of some of my past bosses — ones who led with intensity and frustration. A few years ago, I probably would’ve shrunk in fear. But healing has taught me that anger is almost always a secondary emotion.


Anger often masks grief. Or frustration. Fear. Overwhelm. Wounds we haven’t yet addressed.


“A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.” – Proverbs 15:1 (NIV)


If that anger had a voice—what would it say?


This week, the burden I’ve carried has gone far deeper than any task or responsibility. I’ve witnessed reactions that grieve the heart of God — not because He’s angry, but because He longs to heal us. To soften those places so we can respond, not from hurt or pressure, but from wholeness and love.


As your sister in Christ, I want to gently encourage you: make time to pursue your healing.


“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” – Psalm 147:3 (NIV)


When we don’t, God — out of His great love — will sometimes allow our structures, systems, and plans to stretch beyond their limits. Not to punish us, but to bring us to the end of ourselves, so we turn back to Him. That’s burnout. And it’s not something I want anyone to experience the way I did. I’m here to help. I want to carry the load with them, not just behind them.


Saturday’s workshop was a turning point for me. I walked in thinking I had unresolved wounding. But what I found instead was identity — a clearer picture of who God created me to be. I’m a Doer, a Responder, a Producer, and a Shaper. My spiritual gifts are service, mercy, generosity, administration, and exhortation.


“We have different gifts, according to the grace given to each of us.” – Romans 12:6 (NIV)


For years, the enemy twisted those gifts into people-pleasing and performance. But those lies have been crucified with Christ. What’s left is a servant heart led by grace and excellence — not perfection.


“It is for freedom that Christ has set us free.” – Galatians 5:1 (NIV)


This is where I thrive. This is how I serve. Still, I extend grace. I forgive. I move forward in love.


Because I believe with all my heart: there is a new level of influence waiting — on the other side of healing. Not one built on striving, but on surrender. Not led by stress, but by Spirit.


Let’s not just serve together — let’s heal together too.

 

Reflection & Prayer

Take a moment to pause and consider:

  • Where have I allowed stress to lead instead of the Spirit?

  • What emotions have I buried under frustration or anger?

  • Is there a part of me crying out for healing?


Let’s pray:

Father God, thank You for Your endless patience and love. Thank You for calling us into deeper healing, not just for ourselves, but for those we walk with. Reveal the places in us where we’ve been carrying pressure alone. Help us to surrender, to trust, and to rest in the truth that You are our healer and strength. Teach us to walk in our true identity, unshackled by performance or fear. Let our service be a reflection of Your grace and not our striving. In Jesus' name, Amen.

Donderdag 12 September 2024

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