Here's what I HEARD after I came down for coffee snuggle time with the Lord this morning...

My daughter, my friend.

I'm so glad you're hearing this. I love you, my child. I’ve always loved you & I’ve been waiting for you to run to Me, to make Me your refuge from the storms.

I was right there, with you in those darkest moments, longing to hold you when you shut me out because of wounding caused by those who  have misrepresented Me. I was longing to comfort you & be your friend. I've been waiting for you to hear the quiet whisper of My voice.

If you would but trust Me, I will lift you up higher, far above all you could ever imagine hope, or dream. You will rise up on wings like eagles. You will run & not grow weary. You will walk & not faint.

Again you're thinking: "What did I do to deserve this?" but I want you to know that you don't need to do anything to deserve My love. I love you regardless of anything you did or didn't do. You are My child, a human BEING not a human doing. I love you because of who you ARE irrespective of what you do. Even when you were covered with "bad & dirty", I loved you still.

I called you by name, Patrizia. I formed & fashioned you in your mother’s womb. In the crushing I have prepared you to shine My light in the darkness, to bring hope to the hopeless & comfort to the weary as I have comforted you.

Take My healing to the nations. Trust in Me, I have given you EVERYTHING you need. I have QUALIFIED you through the training of experience.

You will run & not grow weary as you remain in My presence & draw from the Vine. Abide in Me & I will show you deep & marvellous things. I will train your hands to war & I will show you the way to go. I will never leave you, nor forsake you, you need only be still & learn from Me. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace as you rest in My presence. My yoke is easy & my burden is light. Allow Me to show you which burdens are NOT yours to carry.

You are my precious daughter. I love you with an everlasting love. You are Mine! 

‭Psalms 119:41-48 MSG‬[41-48]

Let your love, God, shape my life with salvation, exactly as you promised; Then I’ll be able to stand up to mockery because I trusted your Word. Don’t ever deprive me of truth, not ever— your commandments are what I depend on. Oh, I’ll guard with my life what you’ve revealed to me, guard it now, guard it ever; And I’ll stride freely through wide open spaces as I look for your truth and your wisdom; Then I’ll tell the world what I find, speak out boldly in public, unembarrassed. I cherish your commandments—oh, how I love them!— relishing every fragment of your counsel.

‭Psalms 119:49-56 MSG‬

[49-56] Remember what you said to me, your servant— I hang on to these words for dear life! These words hold me up in bad times; yes, your promises rejuvenate me. The haters hate me without mercy, but I don’t budge from your revelation. I watch for your ancient landmark words, and know I’m on the right track. But when I see the wicked ignore your directions, I’m beside myself with anger. I set your instructions to music and sing them as I walk this pilgrim way. I meditate on your name all night, God, treasuring your revelation, O God. Still, I walk through a rain of derision because I live by your Word and counsel.

I was remided of a word received at Lifeboat during prayer in April 2022:

The Lord is wanting to let you know that you are fully equipped to be the equipper of the saints. You are fully equipped. He's given you all power, all authority to go forth in your mission & your ministry. Don't ever feel that you're not capable or unqualified or that you're not sufficient. You're all sufficient because He is all sufficient.

There is power in the Name of Jesus & it's really asking God to renew your mind. It's capturing those little foxes, those thoughts that come & they come quickly & as soon as are entertain them they overwhelm us.

Start dancing!

(I just needed to get rid of the foundational lies I'd come to believe in order to receive this.)

And then for the first time ever I was able to talk to the Father spontaneously without tongues & without getting stuck for words...

So today, I thank You Father, for the work that You've done in my life. Thank You for healing and restoration. Thank You for your perfect love that casts out all fear.

Thank you, Lord, that you brooded over me, that You comforted me and that You loved me with an everlasting love, even through the times when I shut You out.

Thank you that You for removing the fear of the emotions that remain in the box to be released in due time. Thank You that in Your perfect time Lord, I will learn to righteously express all those emotions. Thank You for a full range of emotions, healed and restored to original design.

Thank you, Lord, that you have forgiven me and I pray, Lord, that You would help me to forgive myself for all the ways that I have failed my family and my children. I pray Lord, that You would help me bring restitution and healing into their lives as You have so graciously done for me.

Thank You for so graciously placing me into an environment where I can heal in relation to workplace, leadership & authority.

Thank You for drawing me to read the book "Healing from the Stop" and that You had my healing in mind when You prompted Elias to write these profound statements I'd been yearning to hear all my life in his book:

"Another crisis will befall you. It’s not a case of ‘if’, but ‘when’. And when your world seems to come crashing down to an absolute halt, remember three things:

1) You’re not in trouble

2) We believe in you

3) We’re here to help"

In my wounding, I had judged, come to expect & believed the LIES that I was "bad & dirty", nobody would believe me, nobody would help me, I can't trust anyone & I have to help myself. Thank You for forgiving me & breaking the power of all these judgements, the LIES & the vows not to cry, trust, be vulnerable & to help myself.

Thank You, Lord, that through Your son, Elias, You have led me to believe that I'm not in trouble, that You believe in me and that You are indeed here to help and thank You for placing people around me who don't blame or criticize me but believe in me & are here to help.

Thank You for dismantling the strongholds of denial & shame. I pray that You would bring into my life new experiences as evidence that these structures have been dismantled & the sinful responses brought to effective death at the Cross.

I pray for the God that you would give me the ability and the strength to continue to walk through this journey of healing and restoration. Would You continue to bring to the surface anything that doesn't bring You glory so we can lay an axe to the root of every fruit that's not part of my original design.

Thank you for your peace, Lord. Thank you for Your love and Your healing touch. Thank You for Your mercy, that is new every morning. Thank You that I was created by love, with love and for love.

Thank You Jesus. Thank You that You gave Your life as a ransom for me so that I could be free & walk in the freedom & abundance You have so paid for so dearly. I love you, Lord. You are worthy of all praise or honour or glory.

And Lord, if there are any more unbelieving areas in my heart, would you shine your light into the darkness and bring them to the surface so that we can lay the axe to the root of those areas and of those fears, and of that unbelief in Jesus Name.

Father God, would you encamp your angels around me and bind every evil spirit, every force of darkness that would try and hinder, thwart or block the work that You are doing in my life. Lord, would You contend with all those forces of darkness that have contended with me all my life? Would you rebuke the enemy on my behalf in Jesus Name?

Help me, Father, to become the daughter You've created me to be, to be the wife of excellence, to be the mom and to be the WoW woman (Woman of Worth) that You've created me to be.

As I am rebirthed as Patrizia, beloved, highly favoured, anointed, worthy, valued, loved, noble, beautiful & capable, thank You for Your grace & strength to step out with boldness & courage to overcome by the Blood of the Lamb & the word of my testimony to become the bringer of joy You've created me to be.

And so today I bring to the cross ALL the given names & labels • Unplanned • Imposter • Nazi • Stupid • Weirdo • Pat • Trish • Patrys (partridge) • Trys • Trysie • Pattat (sweet potato) • Heksie (witch) • Teacher's Pet • Koeksister • & many more that I've conveniently "forgotten" (the list is endless) so PATRIZIA (of noble birth) can emerge in her full force & potential, although I think 🤔 we can keep TRIXI after all she's hidden in PaTRIXIa... & bringing joy is a tool for my purpose of healing hearts. Thank You Lord for raising me up to more than I can be.

Father God, would you encamp your angels around me? Would You find any every evil spirit. Every force of darkness that would try and hinder, thwart of block the work that you are doing in my life, Lord. Would you contend with all those forces darkness that have contended with me all my life? Would you rebuke the enemy on my behalf in Jesus.

Thank You that You have given me the authority and the power to speak Your healing & restoration into the nations around me. That I can shine light Your light in the darkness so that others too can be healed. Would you show me, Lord? What is my next step? What is in my hands to steward? On your behalf, Lord. Thank you Jesus. That I don't have to do this on my own. But Lord that you surround me. with those people who will share Your vision and would run with me to make it come to pass.

Thank You that You've give me the authority and the power to speak  Your Word to the nations around me. That I can shine light your light in the darkness so that others too can be healed.

Thank You that You have fully equipped me, Lord, to be the equipper of the saints. Help me do that which You have called and anointed me to do. That I can be bold and courageous to share all the wondrous works that You've done in my life so others can be encouraged, find hope and healing. Help me, Lord, to be a vessel of Your love, Your peace, Your mercy, Your kindness, Your grace and Your joy. Help me, Lord to represent You well.

Would You show me, Lord, what's my next step? What's in my hands to steward on your behalf, Lord. Thank you Jesus for reviving the vision that You gave & that I don't have to do this on my own but Lord, thank You that You will surround me with those people who will share the vision and help me pull it off the ground so our community, our nation & the world can be healed 1 broken heart at a time.

It's NOT by might, nor by power but by Your Spirit Lord. Thank You Father.

In Jesus Name

Amen

Sunday morning worship was epic, but did leave me with some carpet burns on my knees...