I started D-School in July 2022 thinking it would be a breeze because I'd dealt with all the issues on the index, until we got to the lesson on SPIRITUAL REBELLION.
I learnt every person is deeply in spiritual rebellion & in need of being reconciled with Him. 3The foolishness of a person ruins his way, And his heart rages against the Lord. Proverbs 19:3 It's not sin to desire relief from painful or difficult circumstances, but this lesson speaks to the way we reject our lives & ourselves, thus rebelling against God who created us. As a little girl, I thought I should have been a boy so daddy would love me too. If our rebellion remains unhealed it will affect us spiritually, physically & emotionally.
I also dishonoured & rebelled against God by
turning from life in the womb when I decided “I shouldn’t be here”,
hating my names,
rejecting myself & the girl He created me to be,
not believing His truths about me &
not being authentic to name just a few aspects of dishonour & rebellion towards God.
I also learnt that you can't bear fruit unless you abide in the Resurrection. The cross is just the starting point. We must not stay there. Only the Lord knows the hearts of all men. Judgement is wrong because there's bitterness towards the person & we identify them by their mistakes. Because of trauma caused by drunkards in my life, I used to hate anyone who was drunk & in our early years of marriage Clive wasn't even allowed to come near me if he'd consumed any alcohol but today, I can no longer look at a drunk person without asking what the trauma behind the addiction is because ALL addictions are rooted in trauma. Although some addictions are harmless, others are destructive to those around us whilst others are self-destructive. When we see more than our judgement in people it sets them free.
A few more truths I received during D-School group ministry:
You're a human BEING not a human doing
Come my child, my chosen one, my daughter.
Stop doing, rest in Him.
Father of Peace - "My peace I give to you, My Peace, I leave with you.
"There is nothing wrong with me." Abide in Him, breathe in Him, His Peace.
A GOD of LOVE. Allow yourself to rest & just be.
God called you by name. He defined Patrizia (meaning: of noble birth).
Learn to stay in that Peace. He goes before you. He will show you the way.
After my group ministry session, I heard the Lord say: "BUT wait, there's more..." apparently, He's not finished with me yet. The Holy Spirit is gentle & takes through the journey as He peels of the layers one at a time like the layers of an onion, but He will not do it unless we allow Him.
These encouraging words received after completing D-School were so totally on the ball with what I've felt all my life & I know that many in the church have had similar struggles & would relate to these...
I get Pinocchio. You know he wanted to be a real boy & he did become a real boy. He had the carpenter. There was love there. He wanted a boy. He wanted a son & the Father wants His children. I see Him bringing you into your real identity, that you'll be able to live life. End of the strings. Thank You Lord, we bless the newness. We bless the realness. We bless Your love for your daughter, hallelujah. Pinocchio's father's place was a toyshop, right? Have FUN. Have fun with the Father. Bless you.
Bless you beautiful. Lord we just thank you for your amazing grace & amazing transformation that's just reflecting the glory of the Lord. And we with unveiled faces beholding as in a mirror are being transformed from glory to glory into the likeness of the Son. 2 Corinthians 3:18 I was so blessed when I saw you dancing there well before we started & I just declare fulness of joy in His presence & dancing queen for the King. I just feel like there's a coming home for you. It's like "now I fit. I have a home. I have a country. I have identity. I have a culture. It's okay to be me. I'm home in the Father's house & it's gorgeous. It's amazing.
I just declare the boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places. The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely, I have a delightful inheritance. I will praise the LORD, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me. I have set the LORD always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Psalm 16:6-8
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